Forward

Suddenly I have something to write about. Looking forward, taking charge. I'd say looking forward is the best thing anyone can do. It sure doesn't hurt to look back at things we've accomplished so far, things we've done, people we've met, people we hurt and let out of our lives. All this sure makes one think about the value of life itself. I sound like I've been through a lot and really old but I don't think I'm the only one who thinks this way.

To me, looking forward is about making a choice. There aren't any wrong or right choices in life. Once you figure out what you wanna do with your life then just go in that direction. Don't hesitate or procrastinate any longer. It's the same as having a once in a life time chance pass by you and you're busy figuring the pros and cons instead of just reaching out and grabbing that chance and you pretty much know that you will regret it if you just let it pass you by just like that. At least if you fail, you at least tried.

Speaking from experience. I joined the Biomedical Course at UTAR last May. After 3 months, I realized that it's not what I want in life. Sure it's cool to do science but on my on terms, I've come to a conclusion whereby I don't wanna sit in a lab with a lab coat and goggles and carrying out experiments. Nope. I'd rather be out and about in the world outside. And so, I quit the course. Yes. After deciding on something, I just go and do it straight when I'm very sure with what I want. Lesson learnt during the past 3 months, don't ever make rash decisions.  

Chili BURN!

Cut up some chilies just now. And after 20 mins my fingers start burning. Now it's a bit more bearable the pain. Crap. Note to self : Be more careful when cutting up chilies next time.

Day 2 After Submitting The Withdrawal Letter

It's the second day since I've submitted the withdrawal letter from Utar, Kampar. My floor mates have all gone back to KL today. I have one more floor mate who occupies the room next to mine but I rarely talk to her so it doesn't make a huge difference for me. Anyhow, it's kind of quiet and very cooling now. The rain started at 2pm and stopped and now it's raining again. Perfect weather to sleep in ^.^ but I rarely do naps. Sighs. Being alone sucks big time. Got no one to talk to unless if I go on MSN.

It's quite confirmed that I'll be enrolling in the marketing course provided by KBU International College. My mum says why do I choose to go to a college rather than a university. Well, those weren't her exact words. She just sent me a message stating : got u dun want want college. Honestly, I used to the think that the word : UNIVERSITY seemed to be a fancy word and all but in the end it's down to the quality of the certificated being awarded by the body itself. We can obtain degrees from both college and university. There isn't much difference anyways. It's just the name that's different. I'd rather go to a college that has been around longer rather than a university that has just started running not too long ago. That's just a thought. I'm not saying that KBU has been around longer compared to UTAR. Google them up. It's a rather personal thing.

Another day in Kampar

I went to the Admissions Office today to ask about my official withdrawal letter. Anyways, the lady there looked kinda lifeless to me. What a little fasting can do to people. I'm not going to talk about fasting. I know nothing about fasting besides the fact that it makes one go hungry and possibly developing gastritis. I for one do have gastritis. Due to not eating on time. Ok, why do I always have to deviate from one topic to another? Oh well, back to the story. 

I went there around 1.40pm, when the sun was high up in the sky by bike. Can you possibly imagine that? Terrible. Thing is, I didn't break into a sweating frenzy when I was cycling. I started perspiring when I was resting. Oh gawd. So after that I went to see the lady with a friend of mine. The lady said it would normally take 1 week to process everything. What a let down. ONE WEEK. What am I going to do for the time being I wonder since I no longer am going to attend the classes.  

Facebook is no longer fun and my mailbox is almost always empty besides being filled with notifications from fb. I have got to pick up a new hobby. I have got no books here to read anymore, which is a very sad fact. On the bright side though, I'll be back in KL in more or less a week's time. Hopefully, I'll be back next sunday =)

The Beginning of A New Chapter in Life (AGAIN)

Currently doing Biomedical Science at UTAR. But I'll soon be withdrawing from the university and moving back to KL to pursue a degree in marketing. Why the sudden change? I don't want to do science anymore. I used to think that it was fun and when something is fun, we tend to be able to cope with it more. Classes and lectures are just that but when it comes to tests and exams, that's when I realize I actually don't get what was happening even though I studied. I've been giving it some thought over the month now. Doing science is cool and all but it's not for everybody. My aunt even suggested that I do journalism since I like to write. The only thing I feel bad about now is that it took me such a long long time to finally make the right decision. Eight months to be exact. Eight months, that's more than half a year.

Now, since I have a second chance to choose what I REALLY want to do and what is SUITABLE for me, I should obviously appreciate it. My mum asked if I still felt like a kid, i told her yes. due to being so fickle minded. She also said to think carefully, this is my life and she can't be with me forever. I know how much she cares and loves me but sometimes she doesn't seem to express her feelings the right way. I know deep down how much she cares. I told her I will make the right choice this time around and I won;t regret it. Picking science was obviously the wrong choice for me.

Things to do before leaving Kampar:

1. Go to the finance office and ask for the refund

2. Return the book I borrowed from the library

3. Submit the withdrawal letter

4. Submit the letter for refund of caution money

By the way, I previously deleted my blogs but after deleting them, I felt like there was nowhere for me to channel my thoughts.